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Post by PeriwinkleHaze on Feb 1, 2015 22:37:45 GMT
Banned cause I will do  |
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Post by Old Lion on Feb 1, 2015 22:38:54 GMT
Banned because I hope it's soon I love you |
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Post by PeriwinkleHaze on Feb 1, 2015 22:41:35 GMT
Banned cause I love you too :3 forever and always :3
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Post by Old Lion on Feb 1, 2015 22:42:34 GMT
Banned because anything else you wanna say tonight my love? |
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Post by PeriwinkleHaze on Feb 1, 2015 22:51:01 GMT
Banned cause I love you with all my heart and soul and I'm gonna see you real soon and I'm gonna be me with every ounce of myself because it's the least of what you deserve :3 you are everything to me so I'm fighting for you :3
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Post by Old Lion on Feb 1, 2015 22:52:40 GMT
Banned because we're fighting for us my love for absolute joy and happyness for our life and all the things we get you get I love you |
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Post by PeriwinkleHaze on Feb 1, 2015 22:54:16 GMT
Banned cause fighting for us <3 Hope you sleep well my love I'll keep checking the site for you |
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Post by Old Lion on Feb 4, 2015 9:46:09 GMT
banned because I thought I'd update you on all that's been going on
I'm taking sleeping pills and vitamin tablets to try and repair all the damage that's been done over the past few months and it's sort of working though I wish I wish it hadn't come to needing drugs. I'm still really tired all the time but I've been dreaming every night like I used to I've even been dreaming about you coming to grease the past few days which has been a good thing I've fallen out with Hannah but I'm getting closer with the guys and have been spending a lot of time with mum. I've not gotten my mock results back yet but I'll let you know when I know sweetheart
I miss my Kath like hell, but as I've said before I have done for months and I love her so so so much. I hope life without me is treating you as well as it can but that you miss me as much as I miss you. |
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Post by PeriwinkleHaze on Feb 4, 2015 11:15:41 GMT
Banned cause thank you for telling me, been wondering about you a lot :3 I hope you'll get yourself back to normal soon, though I feel like this all is a strong sign that change needs to happen on my end. I've been doing my best to keep positive and remind myself that you are still here but it's not been the easiest thing in the world. I've been spending a lot more time at school and staying late after school because I can't get over just how intensely lonely I feel when I'm at home. At least at school there's people to talk to though everyone is getting angry st each other and it's not the best atmosphere. Holly has really upset Maggie with bloody boy drama and it's really annoying to be around but me and Elise have spent a lot of time together which has been nice went for a walk ib the snow yesterday when we and Maggie had frees, it was nice :3 Been missing you like hell though, but I know that in a way what's happening is a good thing even if it shouldn't have got to this point. I'm sorry to hear about you and Hannah, I hope you can patch things up soon x Me and mum had a massive argument about Grease and Sam I'm super super sorry but she's not letting me go  I really feel like a failure and like I've let you down but I gotta tell you because I don't want to get your hopes up come Friday night and I'm not there she is however letting me comr down for half term, it's just a matter of how long for. Been snowed under with coursework this past week and I reckon it's gonna be like that for the next two weeks before half term so yeah, fun times :3 I love you Sam and I miss you so so much, but we'll get through this and the grass will be greener on the other side :3 I hope your dreams have been nice, not been having good ones myself but alas, I haven't for months so no change there :3 I'm sorry for everything and I'm so so so so sorry about Grease but still actions have consequences so I shoulda seen this all coming. gonna keep positive though as best as I can I love you Sam and I hope I see you soon :3 |
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Post by Old Lion on Feb 4, 2015 11:54:41 GMT
banned because that really really sucks about Grease the whole reason i did it was for you :/ really don't see the point now I'm glad you're having fun with your friends and that Kath and it's cool that you've got snow in Croydon (nothing like that here) I don't know if I'll be able to message again until half term :/ |
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Post by PeriwinkleHaze on Feb 4, 2015 12:04:27 GMT
Banned cause I really really did all that I could Sam, I'm so sorry I understand if you don't wanna talk to me or you don't wanna see me at half term :/ |
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Post by Old Lion on Feb 4, 2015 12:07:34 GMT
banned because if you don't see me at half term you don't see me ever again. The way I see things Kath is I had everything sorted; I knew what i was doing and where I was going. I loved life and was happy with who I am and I did all those things to make your life perfect too. I've decided that at the end of the holliday's I'm moving on and I'm gonna go back to loving life and I'll do it with or without you Kath. I wanna make you happy Kath, but if all yu wanna do is treat me like shit and ruin things then I can't have you in my life. The choice is yours
God i reallh wish I didn't have to do grease now, I can't wait for it to be over
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Post by PeriwinkleHaze on Feb 4, 2015 12:13:55 GMT
Banned cause I don't want to treat you like shit Sam, I want to make you happy
I told you Friday there was next to no chance mum would let me come, she wasn't keen on it a great deal in the first place and then she kept thinking you hated me and were going to break up with me the past two months so obviously she didn't want to book it in that case and that's her final word Sam, I can't go against her and change it or I will really never get to see you again
I still want to see you at half term Sam, but I don't want to force my company on you
I love you Sam and I don't know if you know but it rips me up that I haven't given you what you want, all I ever wanted was to be good to you and be good for you and I'm sorry beyond belief that I haven't done that
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Post by Old Lion on Feb 4, 2015 12:16:39 GMT
banned because you know all you've donne Kath and you know all it's cost you, I did grease for you Kath for you and you alone and it hurts so much knowing you won't actually be there after everything I've done for you/
do you really miss me?
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Post by PeriwinkleHaze on Feb 4, 2015 12:20:02 GMT
Banned cause I miss you, I miss us, I miss how we used to feel, I don't miss these arguments, but I miss you and all that you do and who you are and the light you give to my life and the way you make me feel
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I really feel like a failure and like I've let you down but I gotta tell you because I don't want to get your hopes up come Friday night and I'm not there